Monday, October 18, 2004
hi everybody! its been a long time since my last entry.. i'm not sure exactly what to type, so the contents of this entry will be created by impulse, i'm typing as my thoughts come out..
Tonight, when i stare into the sky,
i wonder..
it is shaded by clouds,
but it surely isn't overcast.
unable to see beyond the clouds,
i wait. i wait..
memories of the last few days flash through my mind
slowly, painfully, i recollect my thoughts
melancholic, i turn to the sky for solace
staring at it, i seek answers to unanswered questions.
the clouds move in a direction
changing its form as it passes
to aptly describe its shape,
is limited only by our imagination.
briefly, the clouds clear,
revealing what's hidden beyond
stars, like precious gemstones
etched in the the wall of the sky
everyday,
the constellations of the stars are different
our lives are just but a compilation of moments.
and often, these are fleeting moments
it is in letting that we can move on
we've have to lose to gain
sometimes, we yearn for a vast visual memomy in our minds,
able to capture every delightful moment,
to savour over and over again later..
this is quite impossible
however, we are able to remember some of these moments..
as they're so precious to us, we hold them close, like a child his lolly
--if only we're always able to slow the pace of our lives , to properly savour the beauty of it--
oblivious to the surroundings, i travel alone
solitude, what joy and respite it brings to me
i'm occupied with myself, and myself only
i'm beside myself
looking out of the window, it is raining
i observed how the raindrops fall onto the road,
forming sheets of water that flow into the gullies
the ripples that form and move out in concentric circles,
after the water cushioned the fall of the raindrops
my attention then switches onto the glass window pane
what i saw certainly has parallelism to my mindscape
as the rain hits the glass, the droplets of water then begins to flow down the glass,
each taking its own path
some of these droplets move close to each other
the closeness varies as they migrate downwards
some of these water droplets merges, to form bigger droplets that flow faster
some of these merger droplets split when they encounter a dry area of the glass
some never meet, flowing down vastly different paths
similarly, in life, each of us has his/her own path
sometimes our paths come into close approximity, and while it might be only transient,
we appreciate the moments we spend together
friendship never dies
sometimes, some paths even mergers, in tangible context, people call it love
here, the paths of two different people interweave and revolve around each other..
in the arduous journey of life,
the people we meet bring much comfort, respite and joy
-that empowers us to be stronger, more determined
they share their lives with us, enriching our imagination
-inspiring us to reach greater heights
the path of life is a lonely one
Julian
