Monday, August 16, 2004
was scolded, criticised and insulted by gail ng today.. feeling quite depressed now.. haix.. sigh.. perhaps it was good for me, maybe what she said would dull the edge of my pride and sharpen the edge of my humility..
my teachers are constantly encouraging me to study and work hard to fulfill my potential.. not one of them has given up on me.. so why am i so short of confidence and will? some of my classmates even asked my to do my best, as it'd be good for the class as a whole, because they hope that through me, they could have something to work towards: a goal, an aim.. but its like even i'm like just coming to grips to my academic load now.. haha the chinese saying goes: zhi4 shen2 nan2 pao3..
why am i letting everyone down? my parents, my brothers, my teachers, bro paul, my friends who believe in me.. is it so damn hard to sit down on the table everyday to put 2 meaningful hours into my work? how do i get rid of this sloth in me? help!
where's my usual bashful, assertive and confident self?
changes have to be made, and made now..
i've to start believing in myself.. :)
i wanna prove all my doubters WRONG!
i want them to eat their own words
give me strength, to realise my potential
i've been in hibernation too long
time to wake up and put things back to normal
julian tan is back!
i hope when i come back to this blog, i bring back good news!
looking towards investiture on friday with much anticipation!
au revoir
