Friday, May 21, 2004
a soul, emptied..
i'll start off by saying this: what a wonderful day it has been! our class participated in the frisbee interclass competition and after grueling tough matches against T3, T24, T34 and T28, we clinched the 2nd place! this is absolutely the first time i've seen so much enthusiasm, elation and team-spirit in my classmates! haha we were fighting for each other selflessly, to conquer our opponents.. we couldn't overcome T28 in the midst of many refereeing doubts, much to the disappointment of the guys, including myself.. we walked off the pitch, heads bowed, dispirited..
later, we collected ourselves and realized that 2nd placing ain't that bad after all! haha.. we told ourselves that we've given our 100%, and in our hearts,
we're the champions! hail 2t13'04! i've never been so proud of this class before!
after the euphoria of the sports carnival had died down, i went home to wash up and bathe..
i saw her at the bus stop.. as usual, confident, radiant..
went to town to meet my frens and in the evening we went to NJC's symphonic band concert.. matthew, yaoguang, nick and jingliang.. i went to support my sjimb mates, victor and yuen sean..
jingliang :"pictures restrict our imagination."
julian :"words confine our expression."
have you ever felt so--so--insignificant? sometimes it feels that the world can very well do without me.. is this feeling borne out of neglect or a lack of sense of belonging? i'm unsure.. augh anyway this feeling sucks to the core.. and like i said yesterday, i need fuel, inspiration, food for my soul.. my mind is empowered by inspiration and positivity.. i'm so lacking in it now.. so dispirited.. i need to find my niche, my source of hope and light, so that i can carry on with life's earnest battles..
she's so near, yet so far.
arrivederci.
